Musings

More stuff about work

As I mentioned earlier this week, I'm having mixed feelings about my job. The past few days I've been thinking about why this is the case, and in conversations with my best buddy Ceejay I think I've come to realise one or two things.

First off, I've come from a job that I'd been doing since I started work all those years ago. The trade got into my veins and I knew pretty much everything there was to know. I was the guy who could sort out the problems, handle disputes and work alongside the manager, doing admin and all that. I've come from this elevated position that I'd worked many years on getting to to a place where I know nothing and I'm at the bottom of the pile. Instead of being the Helper I'm now the one in need of Help. How the tables have turned! So I guess it's only natural for me to get frustrated.
Second, because I'm not sure what I'm doing, and I make the odd mistake, and inevitably get told off, I'm quite concerned that I'll get the sack, and have to find a new job in the new year or else. This also adds to my frustrations at work, which are amplified by the fact that I'm not entirely sure who I actually answer to. Three Managers is a bit too much for me. I'm used to the hierarchy of Manager>Assistant Manager>Me. All three expect different things and sometimes they tend to contradict each others commands. Would someone please tell me what I'm meant to be doing!!?? Hahahaa.
Third- I've realised that as things such as targets go, I don't really care. If I actually cared about the place, I'd do my absolute best. As it is, work is 'that place where I get told off a lot' so I really couldn't care less about the place. in my old job I strove to make it succeed because I knew the people I worked with and what was needed and how do do it. This new job is a bit of a swirling vortex to me at the moment- I've been there two months and I'm not entirely sure what I'm meant to be doing.

So this morning I've awoken with a different mindset. (And also a slightly dodgy gut from that Homebrew I had at my Housegroup social meeting) In talking with my friends and my brothers and sisters in Christ I've realised something: I rock. With God's help I've survived the Pub Trade, and with his help I'll survive this retail job. I'm not stupid, I have a degree. Those guys are darn lucky to have me on their team! Yeah, so I don't know much about stuff- but I will do. Yeah so I make mistakes. But I'll get there. And if I'm still not happy with this job, I can just go get another one. 'Cos I'm ace. So with that in mind, I'm gonna go prayerfully into work knowing that it can't hurt me. Bring it on.